I lost my soul

       Night, like silent water, peace and still.Sitting in front of the computer, I am wondering among the virtual and reality.While my mind slipped back and forth, I was trapped in the deep thoughts. Time past fast, half a year has slipped from my fingers, looking back, I found I did nothing, just fiddler around. Suddenly, I saw the main page of a company I used to work as a part time employee. I came to realize, what I did in the pasthalf year, nothing! What was I afraid of?

       Time can’t wait for you to be ready for everything. During the past months, I wanted to change my career direction.Because I thought maybe it would suit to my character. Now I just like waking up from a long dream, I realize I can’t live life like before any more, I mustdo something. It’s not wise to use your weaknesses to compare with others’ strong points.

       From the half a year life experience, I feel that the more your fear about something, the harder the thing will be.

       I want to do something I am really interested in. For a long time, I refused to face the reality. But after experiencing many things during the half a year, I feel that there is no easy work for a common people to do, all you need to do is to insist on it. We don’t have good family background and no good education profile; All we can rely on are ourselves. Since we can’t avoid the difficulties, we must face the challenges.I am an English major student, and business is my work direction.Because of the limit energy, a man only can do well for one thing. If I died tomorrow, I must regret for what I didn’t do today. So come on, young man, choose a direction and work hard for it, even though you won’t be successful finally but at least you will not regret!

      No pain, no gains! Compare with such meaningless life currently, I’d like to pursue a more concrete life. Everyone is fair before the God, we only live once. We can’t let our life be arranged by anyone, we are equal.

     Because of our special health condition, I have to choose a steady way to continue my work road. Be more caution and caution. Yes, we ill, but it doesn’t mean we give up our courage to strive for a better life. Now we have recovered, we can make it!

     I don’t think there is enough time left for me.I want to pick up back my confidence, confidence is very important for a man. These days I lost my soul, lived like a corpse. This time I will not turn back, I will keep working until to the end of my life, I swear!  

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牛逼，纯英文能哔哔这么长

通读了一遍，这段英文总体水平不错。祝愿楼主下半年找工作顺利！

Never give up!